Oh Happy Sunday

Sunday is here. Chelle just left for work, now another day as the house-wife begins. I really enjoy it sometimes, although I would rather be at work too. I forgot to take my medicine last night before I went to bed and my shoulder is really being a bother this morning.
Last night for dinner I cooked Chicken and cheesy potato casserole with green beans and collard greens. Yum. I love to cook for Chelle. Whenever she cooks I always feel her eyes on me as I take my first bite out of each portion of the meal, probably to see the reaction on my face to. whatever wonderful meal she has concocted. She is so thoughtful.
Today will be the same as every day since I have been out of work. Clean the house, wash the clothes, water the flowers, and go to the grocery store. thinking of stopping by and visiting my Dad. Dread doing that sometimes, my Dad has this Peter Pan complex. He is almost 50 years old, but still spends his free time, and I mean all his free time, playing PS2 and toking up. It's always a great reminder of why I should strive to go forward. I love him for who he is, I gave up a long time ago on expecting anything really deep or emotional from him. One thing I can say about Chelle is that she always tries to get to the bottom of a problem, identify it's roots in my past, and find a solution. It's kinda like we are each other's therapists, and how many relationships are you involved that make you a better person?
Whenever this wonderful love affair first began, Chelle would send my quotes from this awesome book she has. I didn't know the origin's at first, and I was enamored with the way she knew exactly what needed to be said. It was like our hearts were crying out to one another, and secretly we desperately wanted to hold one another, and it kept us up late many nights until we finally succumbed to the desire in our hearts. I want to pinch myself someitmes, I have to be dreaming. I thought I knew what true love was, and honestly I did not. Another thing that we had in common was our love of music. We don't watch TV, instead we listen to CD's or Yahoo! Launchcast. It's so crazy because the same songs I have enjoyed my whole life she has in her heart too. I read in a book two days ago a statement that says it better than I can. The book is the Alchemist and you should defintiely read it. Any-ways, the saying is "whenever you want something, the whole universe conspires into helping you achieve it". There were a myriad of things that happened between Chelle and I that were just like that. Like the Magic Eight Ball saying "all signs point to yes". It's undeniable. I once told her we were like a million coincidences at once, and it has held true. In a few short months we have developed such a knowledge of another, we can ask each other for things without even saying a word now. I wish that everyone could find that in their lifetime.
Something else is pressing at my brain this morning, and I feel compared to share it. I can be my own worst enemy. I have lived my life so scared of change, afraid to grow, and let my past hold me back from that which I am trully capable of. It doesn't have to be this way for anyone. Learn to forgive those whom you feel have wronged you. A quote shared between Chelle and I said that in forgiving some-one you set them free, only to realize that is was you who was holding yourself prisoner. Reinhold Neibuhr, who wrote the Serenity Prayer, said "forgiveness is the final form of love". The world would be a much better place if everyone would learn to forgive and accept people for who they are.