Finding your Personal Legend

Today's post is somewhat of a somber one. The last few days were pretty interesting, but after Wednesday my mood has been somewhat somber, thanks in part to a rather disturbing movie I watched with Chelle. The movie was called Requiem for a Dream, and if you haven't watched it yet you should. I haven't posted in a few days, something in me develops this sort of blogger's block whenever I am unsettled or in turmoil. But then why blog if you're not going to be honest with yourself and your readers?
The movie was very insightful, bringing back some feelings and memories that I have kept buried for some time now. I was moved by how the movie depicted the many ways people are affected by addiction,and how the things that some-one who is addcited not only disrupts their own life, but the people around them who love and care about them.
So what does this have to do with my Personal Legend? In the Alchemist, by Paulo Coehlo, you learn that your Personal Legend is the path you are meant to take in life to find true happiness. Time is a linear concept, with a start and end point. If you believe this then, everything that happens is already presdestined, and you live your life catching up to the events that shape you, and how you deal with this is what makes you the person that you are. You have to take the good with the bad, but over the course of a lifetime your heart can harden and hearing that still small voice that guides you in the right direction becomes harder than it was when you were young and the world was full of wonder. Believing in something, especially yourself does not come easily for everyone. Listening to your heart, following your dreams, takes faith and perserverance. We were all meant for great things, but each one of us has a different learning curve that leads us to that which we were meant do. Nothing happens to us that wasn't meant to be, but sometimes it is hard to see the mountain top when you are in the valley.
Sunday is Father's Day, and for all of you who have had a good father who was an excellent role model, you should show them how much you appreciate that. I am still debating what if anything I will do for my father that day. Growing up my Dad was not around, my Mom and he divorced when I was very young. It has only been in the last three years that my Father and I have been close, and even now our relationship can be strained at times. Often I am asked why I go out of my way to spend time with him and stay in touch, and I have to say there is a certain sense of inner peace that comes with being the better person. I don't want to do as he has done, I want to do better. A good qoute that was shared wiht me some time ago said that in forgiving some-one, you realize that you weren't holding them prisoner, but yourself. And there is no point in forgiving some-one if you can't forget. So if you are able call, e-mail, text, or send your dad a card and let him know how much you appreciate him this Sunday.